The Question .... "What clues you into the fact that you are relying on your own strength in your battles with food (or any other struggle)?"
**Edited** I didn't like what I wrote so I'm starting over.
I like what Lysa says about a pity party. However, after I have had some time to think about what my clues are I have a better answer.
One day not long ago, I had "one of those days" where I had left my Bible home. I have this handy dandy New Living Translation that IS perfect to pack around. At work, I'm a custodian and I have to wear a smock. The smock has BIG pockets and I slide that handheld, large pocket sized Bible down in it. That way I always have God's Word with me. When on break of any kind (including potty break), I can read it. I don't always read it but CAN read it. Just knowing it's within reach settles the ole brain. So, my Bible was at home. It was also a day when EVERY minute felt like it was consumed by "other things". Name it! I bet it was distracting me, bidding for my attention. I didn't pray as much. By the end of the day, I was feeling "mean". Tired. Exhausted. All I wanted to do was go home and go to bed and forget the day had existed. That did NOT happen!
Long story short, I blew up at my son! Monster Mom came out with a vengeance! Should he have been disciplined? Yes. Should I have acted the way I acted? No.
I was running on empty. I hadn't taken time with God most of the day. I did my morning prayers and devotional but that was it! When you think about it, we are told to eat 3 healthy meals a day and have 2 or 3 healthy snacks in between. What makes us think we can make it all day on just ONE meal with our God? If we are suppose to eat (healthy) through out the day to keep our physical strength up, shouldn't we be feasting on God's Word and God's Presence through out the day so we are NOT relying on our own strength to carry us through out the day?
My signs are: frustration, irritability, lack of control of the tongue. I can have pit parties but when I really step back and look at how I respond on a day when I haven't spent time, that precious time with my Savior and LORD, I see where things "get on my nerves" more ... I can see my tolerance level is a lot lower ... I can see how my tongue lashes out at people closest to me. These are ALL signs that I have relied on my own strength through out the day ... PERIOD. I don't care if it is food choices, shopping choices, name it ... I've lived on my own strength for that day and it has WORE me out!
When it comes to food, I think I'm past the pity party stage. I don't care there are skinnier women out there. The only thing that bothers me is the stupid commercials for ChristianMingle.com and Eharmony.com. They always use these slimmer men and women for the ads. Instead of having a pity party like I use to, I now get a little upset. Why can't they show the plus size woman or man finding her/his match? Not only that ... how can it be a successful match until they've been married 10 to 15 years at least? Most first time marriages end after 7 years. .... Oh, wait ... That's ANOTHER blog! And as you can see ... that is how Vivian ends up relying on her own strength instead of focusing on Jesus and what He wants me to do NOT focusing on how lame those commercials are. It's THAT fast folks! The second we take our eyes off Jesus and put our focus on something else, we begin relying on our strength and that will wear us out each time.